For months I’d been wrestling with a restlessness. I had a good job, was healthy and living a full-rounded life surrounded by friends and family, and had the unrelenting love of a wonderful man. But still… something stirred inside me.
I felt unfulfilled, uncreative and lonely in trying to understand what it was I was feeling. It wasn’t until I picked up my journals covered in dust and started reading. I went through my computer and clicked through everything I’d ever written, from things that made it into newspapers and articles, to things that I hope to God no other pair of human eyes ever sees. I’d stay up reading Rilke’s “Letters to a Young Poet” and re-read Joyce’s “Wasteland” to see if this time I’d actually understand it. I was hungry. My creative soul was wanting and it was only revived when it was nourished by moments like these.
I thought about where I was in life, 31, not married, no kids, and a professional track record to be proud of. I could feel myself at another crossroads and again- I had to make a choice. I could either spend the rest of my life in this restlessness or really and truly give my writing a fighting chance.
I decided to do the latter.
When I’d made my decision and made arrangements with my team, I quickly went to the task of writing a letter to the whole company. I wrote it fairly quickly and it sat in my Drafts for a week until I was ready to send it. And though it was tinged with sadness, I felt more joy, fulfillment and creativity in writing that letter than I had in a very long time.
After sending it out, I received very kind notes from people, expressing their shock, disbelief and for some, heartbreak. Some notes were very heartfelt and put me on the brink of tears. I think my favorite notes were from people who complimented the letter and said that I was truly gifted with words. What other sign could I possibly need from the universe?
Without further ado, here’s the letter:
… I want to thank everyone for making this an incredible time for me. In particular, I want to thank the Marketing Team and select individuals who have made this such a memorable experience.
This is a very different company compared to when I joined in 2012. But the one thing that hasn’t changed is the passion, that exists for the product and the mission; all of which couldn’t be possible without the amazing people who champion it. That culture is the very thing that has empowered me to build and grow our Social presence and it has fueled successful marketing campaigns and blitzes like Roominator, Marissa Mayer WFH ‘newsjacking’ and Making Webex your Ex. Going further back, I’ll always have fond memories of the ‘crazy’ marketing campaign that started it at all, Sh*t That Happens On Mute. The birth of these ideas on tops of beanbags, hotel rooms away at tradeshow, and from ping pong tables, allows me to believe that no idea is too crazy- not if you have the will, the talent, and a team that can grind it out.
Thank you for your support, guidance, and encouragement. Truly, it has been an honor.
Wishing you many years of putting passion to work.
And here I am now, with the amazing opportunity to put passion to work. I hope you’ll read on and stay with me on this journey! It’s going to be one hell of a ride.